just need a break

This past week has been one of the craziest weeks ever! Actually the past two months have been crazy busy and it is so hard to believe all that has gone on. Classes, dancing, trips, and so much more have consumed my time. But luckily now it's time to slow down a bit. Wanna know why?

 SPRING BREAK is finally here! I'm filled with mixed emotions because I am not going on a mission trip this spring break; for three of the past four years I was in Mexico spreading the love of Christ. But this year I am at the beach with thriteen of the nuttiest people ever! These girls all love the Lord with all of their heart and I am so so blessed to be able to spend a week with them to get to know them better.

But with this past week being one of the craziest and busiest weeks ever, it was also very confusing. I've been thinking a lot about what direction my life is going in. With planning what to try out for and what classes to take and where to work in the summer, I feel like I am having to make so many plans.

Then I remember one of my favorite quotes: "Wanna make God laugh? Tell Him your plans." And it's so true. I'm spending so much of my time trying to plan my whole life out that I'm forgetting to let God be completely in control of it all. He knows what's best for me, and He most certainly is not going to let me do something that is going to harm me. I need to take a step back and let Him be in control.

So with all of that being said, my long absense from this blog has made me realized its about time for another poem. So enjoy :)

It seems I'm running sideways,

Towards who knows what.

Not for a prize,

I'm just stuck in this rut.

It's not backwards to old problems,

I've learned from my past.

It's left and right and around in circles

And I wonder how long it'll last.

I'm like the waves in the ocean

That try so hard to move

Past the boundaries they are set in

To get out of the groove.

But something holds me here

Not letting me let go

Not letting me move on

To find my brand new show.

I was fine with going sideways

But I'm not so sure now.

Something might come and catch me

and I won't know when or how.

Just know I'm not here

Only for you to please.

I may be stuck going sideways,

but that doesn't mean that you can tease.

So if this is how you want me,

Make sure you don't miss

Now is your chance to tell me

Or give a goodbye kiss.

It seems I'm running sideways,

But I won't always be this way.

Please let me know if I should move on

Or if sideways is how I should stay.